I've been feeling like my mortality has been counting down to something inevitable, health-wise. It's been going on particularly for the past couple of years. It's hard to explain. I know I'm a bit of a hypochondriac, but this is different, more prevalent. I've been to the doctors, gotten blood tests, I even had my stools tested, being I was having a series of colon abnormalities, although I haven't gone in for a colonoscopy, yet. I might have to do that soon. Anyways, so far everything checks out normal. My point is, that I'm always feeling this strange lingering that something is wearing me down. I get tired periodically throughout the day, I feel like specific areas of my body ache consistently. I check those areas for evidence of any bumps or polyps, but I don't ever notice anything. I simply suspect something is wrong with me, but I don't know what. I guess I'm writing this so I can come back to it later, like a long time later, and see how silly I'm being, and that I really need to stop concerning myself and just live my life. I've said before, that all I want is to feel normal. I want this feeling of dread to go away, so I can just be myself, and live a life without the hovering of something maybe killing me off slowly.